Category: Life Things

When the Lord led me to blogging last year, I was full of goals and aspirations. I truly felt Like I had a lot to say! Ha! After the recent curve ball life sent my way, I lost my words. Most people blog through their pain, but I fell silent.

I would love to be able to tell you everything is behind me and that all is well, but I can’t. But what I can say is that God has been with me the entire time and has never left my side. He’s a steadfast God!

During a recent meltdown I confided to a friend that I was having a relapse of emotions. I was feeling a gloom that just wouldn’t lift. She told me I needed to refocus and to ask myself two questions: 1) How much of this is my responsibility and 2) How much of this can I control? I’m so thankful for that chat.

Once I began to internally answer these questions with great honesty, I released myself from that burden. I can’t control the actions and words of others so I began to refocus on what is important and profitable for me.

Because I have changed my focus, I will be blogging more often. My husband and I began a “new thing” in January and I will be sharing that with you all real soon.

God Bless You All

Lisa

Ecclesiastes 3:4

A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance.

Often, life sends curve balls that we can’t avoid. We find ourselves in a life or flight scenario and must pick one option, life or flight. We must learn how to adjust and do a new thing.

Several months ago, our family was broad-sided with a curve ball when a close family member declared they were dis-associating from the family to pursue their own thing, their own desires and their own path.  Of course, we encouraged this person to pray about this decision and we voiced our concerns. It was too late; their mind had been made up. We were certain this would be a temporary thing. We have faced rough patches before, no biggie. Unfortunately, the situation escalated, worsened and continues to worsen.

For now, we learn to grieve the living, for now we learn to share family members separately, now we learn to sit in the same room week after week and ignore each other, for now we learn to keep the tears from public eye, for now we learn to remain silent,  for now we learn to keep our hearts in a place of love and forgiveness.

I’m not sure how this type of thing happens to God fearing families. I wish I knew how God-fearing Christians could do this to someone else. I just don’t know.

But God has not changed. What was meant to kill me has made me stronger. I feel stronger each day. One day I will be able to stand with someone else, encourage them, pray with them and let them know this is just a temporary place.

For now, I continue to trust God’s heart, for now I continue to pray, for now I lean not on my own understanding, for now I wait for dawn, for now I wait for a time to dance.

To my sons,

Just yesterday the life of a beautiful and vibrant young girl at my church was taken way too soon. It was an ordinary day. She went to church with her family Sunday morning, then onto her Sunday afternoon activities.  Within 3 hours of leaving church, she was gone. The scattered pieces are all we have left.

This tragedy reminded me of how blessed I am to be your Mom and still have you both. I love your daddy and my family dearly but it is you,  my sons who have given me the will to live, go on and not give up. If you ask your daddy, he too would say, you are his reason for being the great man he is today. He wanted nothing more than to be your daddy, provide for you and love you. It has been his greatest joy in life.

Our family has been through some tough times. But one of the hardest was when daddy was deployed. I tried really hard to hide the fact that I was very depressed. Each day was a struggle. I slept most of the day just to get through. It felt like the agony would never end.

But the reason I did survive is I had you both. Handsome, you kept me grounded and Little Man, you kept me laughing and busy! You had a social life like no other!  You were opposites, but you were both perfect. God knew exactly what I needed. You were the perfect balance.

When I think on the accomplishments of your lives, this is one proud momma! One day you both will have families of your own and you will better understand this “cheesy”  letter.  You will know what its like to look into the little eyes of your own creation, feel your heart skip beats as tears roll down your eyes. I have wept many times with an overwhelming emotion of love because God chose me to have you both. You will have an overwhelming feeling of responsibility to care for that sweet family just as we did. It is worth it!

You both are also the reason for this blog, Do A New Thing! I’m making some changes in my life because you continue to give me courage and strength. I can’t wait to show you!

Thank you for being my “why”.

All My Love, Mom

Thank you for joining me on my journey to “a new thing”.  I felt inspired to make the leap and begin this journey after coming across this scripture, Isaiah 43:19, this week.

I have finally reached a point in my life that I realize, some things can be made new. I will be blogging on a wide spectrum ranging from my journey to restoring my health to our debt free journey.

I pray I can both inspire and be inspired.