Life Things

Waiting for the dance

 

Ecclesiastes 3:4

A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance.

Often, life sends curve balls that we can’t avoid. We find ourselves in a life or flight scenario and must pick one option, life or flight. We must learn how to adjust and do a new thing.

Several months ago, our family was broad-sided with a curve ball when a close family member declared they were dis-associating from the family to pursue their own thing, their own desires and their own path.  Of course, we encouraged this person to pray about this decision and we voiced our concerns. It was too late; their mind had been made up. We were certain this would be a temporary thing. We have faced rough patches before, no biggie. Unfortunately, the situation escalated, worsened and continues to worsen.

For now, we learn to grieve the living, for now we learn to share family members separately, now we learn to sit in the same room week after week and ignore each other, for now we learn to keep the tears from public eye, for now we learn to remain silent,  for now we learn to keep our hearts in a place of love and forgiveness.

I’m not sure how this type of thing happens to God fearing families. I wish I knew how God-fearing Christians could do this to someone else. I just don’t know.

But God has not changed. What was meant to kill me has made me stronger. I feel stronger each day. One day I will be able to stand with someone else, encourage them, pray with them and let them know this is just a temporary place.

For now, I continue to trust God’s heart, for now I continue to pray, for now I lean not on my own understanding, for now I wait for dawn, for now I wait for a time to dance.

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